Messed up

Why do I always seem to attract the wrong person?? I do whatever possible to do so that men of any kind don't stare  at me, but at the same time I have the right to dress however I want. Just cause I just dress one way it's not cause I'm trying to attract, but I'm trying to get the inner girly girl I have inside,out.  Being me scares me at times honestly.

Let It Be

Let's not be blind.
Let's not be deft.
Let's not be ignorant.
Let's not be disrespectful.

Take a chance to live.
Dream
Believe
Trust
Love
Taste
Explore

We are all we have.
You and Me

Don't wait till tomorrow and act now.

Selfish

Who do you think you are?
You think you're cool,
You think you know it all but you don't.
You act like you own everyone,
You think you're that talented,
You think you're all that, but sweety wake up and come down from your cloud.
You think everyone is always staring at you.
News flash bitch, the world does not revolve around you.
You might be pretty on the outside, but you're way ugly from the inside.
You may have "friends", but they're not real, they are fake like you bitch.
Come on tell me to my face that what I'm saying is not true.
Look me in the eyes and straight denie it.
You're no better than me, you're no more important than me
You're no more human than me.

Vous etes ma vie

Il fait froid.
Je n'ai pas vous.
Je suis triste.
Ou' est-ce que vous etes?
Ma vie n'est pas complet si vous n'etes pas avec moi.

Vous voulez dire le monde à moi.

Vous etes mon soleil.
Vous etes ma vie.
Vous etes mon air.
Je ne complet pas si vous n'etes pas dans ma vie.

Realizations

Did you forget, what I once ment? Did you forget, our promise?
Did you forget, about us?

Was I just a joke?
Was I worthing nothing to you?
Was I another one of your games?

I'm done.
I'll move on.
I'm over it, over you.
I'll change, not for you, but for me.

Open Your Eyes

You're not perfect, nor am I.
You speak poison like a snake, so can I.
You pretend to care, so shall I.
You're one hedonistic bitch, I can be too.
You twist words, I will too.
You put me down, so will I.
You punch, and I'll shoot.
You tell and you better believe I will too.
Learn to feel, and I might too.
Learn to be honest, and I shall speak you the truth.
Learn to be nice, and I'll think about it, it's the least you've earned.
Teach forgiveness, and I shall forgive you.
Learn to love, and others  will love you.
Learn to be free and freedom will catch up to you.
Learn to live, and I'll let you live.

Dark shadows, a Dark Past

Fuck it's been one hell of a week. The main reason is I can't mange sleeping. I probably sleep there or four hours a night, it's insane. I've been trying to figure the cause of my sleeping problems and we finally last night I remember why I keep having problems sleep and we'll it's the cause to a nightmare that I keep on getting.
This nightmare has been thinking, and we'll deep down I didn't want to remember my nightmare but last night I was able to recall it.

I'm so scared out of my pants that my mother will drag me back with that son of a gun.

The nightmare starts with me crying, yelling that I don't wanna go. I'm basically begging but she refuses to listen, she packs my things and starts yelling that it's the best. I can not seem to get a hold of myself, and bomb out of nowhere he shows up, as he approaches me I scream and move back as fast as possible. Then I run to find my uncles and I explain why I don't wanna leave, they are on my side but my mother seems to have her mind set.

I figure I'm scared that my mother will somehow prefer him over me.

Bitch

Don't expect me to be sweet when you just keep hating. Bitch at me and I'll bitch back without hesitation. :)
It's not so fun when you're on the bottom and you have no control, right? Welcome to my life so Fuck with me and I'll Fuck you up. Sincerely all it takes is for you to be nice and stop bullshitting with me.

Relaxation

I shall never be defeated, I'll always get up and fight back because the life I have is worth fighting for. I have a lot of people who care, and I care about them.also.