Dear Hailey,

Dear Hailey, 

    I never imagined that it was possible to  love someone I haven't met yet, but I do. I love you sweety, I love you a million red m&m's and I promise that I will do everything in my powers to protect you.  Just like I love you, so does Daddy, Grandma and chispis my beloved yorkie who has been with me since she was only 3 weeks old. She too already loves you. 

What if..

What if I choose this path  I'm taking?
If I take this path I'll have to undertake criticism of friends, family, and everyone I've ever met and will meet. I'll give up the opportunity of bonding with another family. I'll give up my freedom, some of my dreams, my way of being, myself.
Not only will I bring shame to myself, but my mother and any children I give birth to. It's not that I fucked up, but  I chose the wrong person. I went for the forbidden Fruit.
I can still back out, but that will not only cost my heart, but it will cost the heart of another person. Another person who's been hurt a lot due to the.fact that he gives his heart.all the time and the other person simply use him. I don't want that, I don't want to be that. I don't want to be another heartbreaker.